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have written about this subject for a
friend of mine who is not aware of anything and who used to
honor me very much…
During the short conversations that we had
with him he used to complain about his problems and said ‘’I
am praying all day long without fail. However, all my sorrows,
frustrations and my way of looking at life, my talent in finding
out the mistakes and the faults are still the same as they were
in the past’’. He tried desperately to find an answer for
these by asking ‘’What must I do?’’
These words of him reminded me of a hadith of
Hz.Mohammad (s.a.v).
Our esteemed master was declaring the
following : ‘’Abu Bekr has not become superior to all of you
neither because he performed the salaat much nor he fasted much.
However, all that has happenned was in his heart/ consciousness.’’
My dear friend’s thoughts about the
universality, his life style which was based on this subject
and from time to time the intense claims that he made were
indeed very much surprising as he himself had said.
This state of being was a result of the
feeling of false conjectures/suppositions’’.
The truth that lied beneath his weaknesses
and suppositions was this. He was thinking that he would be
able to repress this feeling of false conjectures/suppositions
through the practices that he named as ‘’prayers’’. However, he
was telling with all his sincerity that he could not convince
himself in this extremely frustrating situation (as the idiom
says ‘a situation that squeezes his heart’).
This awesome feeling was pushing him to do
some nonsense things. All of these conditions were a result
of decorating his thoughts with the things in his imagination,
closing his doors to the world of reality and living in a
dilemma.
The truth is that he had become a person who
suspected about everything. He could never catch the expansions
that have a wider perspective and in a way he could never
become courageous. When he could not succeed in doing these,
then he went all the way to punishing himself. It was
certain that he had some achievements through the pratices that
he had done. As a matter of fact, if there hadn’t been such
practices he would certainly be in a worse condition and he
would be loosing his control totally.
As far as I have understood and learnt, this
false conjectural feeling is one of the strongest and intense
feelings in an individual. Sufism says that the most powerful
feeling is this false conjectural feeling and for this reason
the mind is influenced by these false conjectures and only the
collective mind can neutralise the effects of this feeling.
The false conjecture can show one anything
that does not actually exist as if it exists and leaves him with
suppositions and this is present in almost everyone upto varying
degrees. This strong feeling almost locks up the individual
and prevents the higher functions of his mind from working.
Hz. Rasul of Allah (s.a.v) has shed light to
us about this subject with an interesting hadith.
‘’When each child comes out to this world
from his mother the Satan touches and makes the child cry.
Only Jesus, the son of Mary is an acception for this’’.
Starting form this statement we can feel the
presence of this feeling in almost everyone upto a certain
extent.
The false conjecture can make the
individual do almost everything without an exception. You cannot
even think of them. For example, everyone is afraid of making
a mistake and getting caught. Covering up the fear and
behaving in a mysterious way is an attribute of false
conjecture.
In general, those who have false conjectures
live with fear and the ones who get carried away with fear
believe that they have come to this world not for winning but
for losing.
I have tried to tell my dear friend as much
as I could that everyone has to play his role in the
scenario in accordance with the purpose of his creation. I
have also told him that he should net get effected by anyone,
to refresh his faith/belief and that the person who has faith/belief
would definitely come out of the hell life. In addition to
these I have also told him that he should not bother too much
about anything and in his efforts for this the only condition is
to be honest to himself. Perhaps this warning would be able to
go over to the false conjectural feeling which had surrounded
him and it would abolish the period of effect versus reaction
or decrease its impact.
It would be very nice if the ones who
conjecture/surmise everything would become aware of the fact
that they are missing lots of things!
Istanbul,
December 15th 2002
http://sufizmveinsan.com
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