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It is
worth to think once more over the question ‘’What do I really
want?’’
First of
all it is important for us to know what we really want.
For
example, in case of two people who have faith we can see that
one takes as a basis the idea of going to heaven and builds his
life around this. He tries to perform his religious
responsibilities within the framework of the divine rules. He
does not want to go deeper and says ‘’this is enough
for me’’.
There
are logical reasons for such an attitude and it is accepted as
it is without furthermore questioning.
Whereas, the other one wants the Unity/Oneness/Allah.
This is
the point where the real problem begins. The thing that he
wishes comes in front of himself. However, as he is not
conscious of what he wants, he does not find any problem in
going on with his old habits and type of behaviour.
This is
not what he should do, but he deals with ordinary things like
any other ordinary person. He gives the priority to
individualistic acts as if leaving aside the subject that he has
aimed for.
For
example, when there is a long line with many people waiting he
pretends as if he does not see them and steps forward, he does
not think of paying his debt, he refrains from admitting and
accepting the rights of others. When the red light is on he
does not stop, but instead he goes on. All the left over food,
the garbage in his car he just throws down on the street as
well as the cigarette butts in the ashtray.
He always talks about the stress created by the tempo of his
life style. Always complains about his neighbour. Moreover, he
thinks that defending and proving himself, his ego is a very
good attribute.
As he is
unable to control his feelings, he pushes aside with the back of
his hand the subject of unity/oneness that he always speaks of
and starts to act in a confused manner; he starts to complain
and say that ‘’everybody has to be equal’’.
However,
beforehand he was told about the difficulties of getting ahead
on the path of oneness. He was told that with the conditioned
feelings/emotions/value judgements it would be difficult to
repress the voice of the soul and there would be many losses
when the present worldly needs and the realities of the next
world/the afterlife confront each other.
The
above statements never match the state of ‘’having been
chosen’’, ‘’being important’’.
Regarding this subject Mawlana says :-
The
greatness of the objective of the traveller is understood
from the many windings in the road/the meandering road, from the
tunnels in the mountains and the obstacles on the road. Every
wrong deed is like a mountain pass, a precipice/an abyss or like
a bandit.’’ This means that the road
is slippery and full of dangers. Moreover, in any place in
the whole world the humans could never attain the comfort that
they have been longing for. This is the most striking point.
To be conscious of this fact, attaining such a consciousness is
the first step to be taken on the path leading to know Allah.
As can
be understood from all the above it is not enough to want
something. It is also necessary to have considerable knowledge
on the thing that you are asking for.
It is
very interesting that most of the time the ones who name every
happenning, their situation as ‘’terrible’’ and complain about
these instead of accepting them as the requirement for the
existence are again themselves.
Do you
think that such an attitude is logical?
Yes, on
the one hand trying to get saved from the outer most ring and on
the other hand putting forth an amazing disorder of
consciousness.
Along
with the desire to identify oneself with all the attributes and
names of Allah the layer of individuality grows big like an
avalanche.
In
short, although we do not accept it, here there is a picture
which re-produces the social value judgements and in which there
is a wish to return back to the desires, the
comments/evaluations of the flesh and bone body or the
continuation of these.
I do not
know if this mechanism which I have tried to explain roughly is
worth thinking or not and I leave it to you to decide about it.
However, there is no doubt that in order for everything to
settle down and find their proper places, in order to establish
the stability which will delete all the awkwardness of the
situation it is necessary to make a new arrangement in the
existing training system. I cannot help saying this, but also
I am really anxious to know how it is going to be formed.
Istanbul, April 1st
2004
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